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I really want to make this for Wondercon... looks like a lot of work. EEP. But yeah, it was my fav costume from the Star Wars episodes 1-3.

Gonna be a lot of work, I'm going to start on it now, and by that I mean post for assistance, lol.

http://www.padawansguide.com/white_makingof.shtml

So not really that much going on right now, but I haven't posted in a long time. I hate school, like really super-duper hate and want to be done asap with that crap. I have a phone interview in 4 hours, hopefully they'll give me a full time job with benefits so I can make more money, I'll keep my Habbo job and do both, man oh man do I really need more money.

I still have to get my car looked at to see how much that is going to be to fix it. One headlight not so good ;) I'm afraid that's going to be a lot to fix

Totally digging the band Muse right now, I only just not started listening to them and I'm quite happy with my newly found goodies.

Um, I get paid on Friday- YAY.

Yeah that's it. Still pretty lonely. I need to go meet guys. Trying to find time to hang out with all my friends. I feel bad I can't hang out with everyone all the time. I hope that didn't make me sound conceited or bitchy, that's just the way it is atm.

I'm really glad that Shea has been available lately, I missed my bff. 

I don't know why but I have this huge hankering for some hummus and nan bread.

I really hate living with my grandma more and more. I got some water from one of her wayward containers in the fridge and I started drinking it and now I can taste ant poison. I'm betting shes rubbed poison all over the kitchen and now it's getting in the cups and water and stuff, gross. I kind of feel a bit ill too, i hope I'm not getting poisoned. *claws the walls* I hate living here.


Okay now I'll go pop into slumberland for a couple hours before my interview, then after I'm totally taking an uber long "nap."

:)

So I was looking at LiveJournal goodies and I came across this posted in a community and thought it was not only hilarious but rather true:

( http://theparkbencher.blogspot.com/2009/06/how-to-meet-and-woo-nerdy-girl.html ) -> in case u want the link

How to Meet and Woo a Nerdy Girl

Recently, I’ve noticed a lot of folks coming to The Park Bench after Googling “how do I meet a nerdy girl?” Hopefully, this is not the manifestation of some creepy new human trafficking trend but instead is the result of more people wanting to find and date the nerdy woman of their dreams. With that in mind, I offer the following tips:

Tip #1: Know where to look.

The number one thing to know about nerdy girls -- they're probably not going to be doing body shots at the local sports bar on a Friday night. If they're out partying, it's over a micro-brewed pale ale in the quiet corner of their local hole-in-the-wall watering hole. Other good places to spot nerdy women: libraries, bookstores, used bookstores, any other place with books you can think of, comic book stores, knitting stores, craft stores, sitting in the park...reading a book, the local cat fanciers convention, at a midnight showing of "Alien" or in their living rooms, watching "Firefly" again.

Tip #2: It helps to look like this guy:

On the other hand, it helps to look like this guy too:

You're pretty much good either way.

Tip #3: Read lots of books.

Here’s the brutal truth: the nerd girl of your dreams is a brainiac. She’s going to know a lot of stuff about a lot of stuff. You’re going to need to study up -- none of that sitting at the coffee shop with an unread copy of “The Waste Land” in your hand, trying to impress the shallow ladies. Your nerd girl will check to make sure that the spine on the book is cracked and cracked good. She likely also will ask you to compare “The Waste Land” to “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock.” If you have to resort to Cliff's Notes, do it surreptitiously. It’s like getting a butt implant – the nerd girls will know you’re faking it.

Tip #4: Don’t slack off on your video game skills.

One of the prime perks of dating a nerdy woman is that she will not yell at you for playing video games rather than, say, going shoe shopping with her. In fact, she likely will sit down next to you and pick up a controller. Here’s the thing though: she’s probably good at whatever game you’re playing so you better be good at it too. Whether it’s Mario Kart or Tiger Woods Golf or the bloody carnage of Grand Theft Auto, she will show no mercy. Practice, practice, practice!

Tip #5: Listen to NPR.

Nerd girls like to stay up to date on their current events…and they like to do it with the dulcet, sometimes somnolent tones of NPR broadcasters. Beware, though, of the onset of NPR depression which stems from listening to so much news and sad stories about flooding in Nova Scotia or the inequities facing migrant workers that you become convinced the world is doomed and there’s no use leaving your house in the morning. This will put a damper on your dating. However, this prevalent disease also will give you an out if you've had to slack off on your NPR duties – just say, “I had to take an NPR break. Sometimes it makes me sad.” This serves two purposes: it gets you off the hook AND it makes you look sensitive. Bonus!

Tip #6: Be interesting.

Whereas a lot of ladies want you to be rich, nerdy women just want you to be interesting. Do you have a comic book collection that spans decades and rests in a vault somewhere untouched by human hands? That’s kinda cool. Are you learning how to do animation so you can one day post the adventures of a hobo cat online? That’s kinda cool too. Maybe you build houses for the poor on weekends or spend an afternoon teaching creative writing to high school kids? Awesome and more awesome. It doesn't matter what you do, just do it well.

Tip #7: Know your pop culture references.

Know the complete works of the Nerd Holy Trinity: Joss Whedon, J.J. Abrams and Peter Jackson. Know that Nathan Fillion will always be on your girl’s “freebie” list. When she goes to church and thanks God that Robert Downey Jr. survived the 1980s so he could play Iron Man, say “Amen” right alongside her. And for the love of all that is sacred and holy, do not EVER get “Star Wars” and “Star Trek” confused: one has Wookiees, one has Shatner, it’s not that hard.

Tip #8: Compliment her by saying, “You remind me so much of Liz Lemon.”

This is truly the highest form of flattery for just about any nerdy woman. Liz Lemon is our patron saint. Her inability to wear high heels, keep food off her face or refrain from making penis jokes while holding a tower made of Legos in her hands makes us reflect fondly on our own quirks. We love her…and you should too.

Tip #9: Embrace her collectibles.

That is not a euphemism for something pervy. It’s just a fact. When you walk into her apartment for the first time and notice a glass cabinet filled with a miniature TARDIS, a sombrero-wearing Giles, a 17-inch Han Solo and a two-foot long replica of the Enterprise NCC-1701-D, do not say, “What the hell is all this stuff?” Instead say, “What the hell? Why don’t you have MORE of this stuff? And may I mail order something for you?”

Tip #10: Be willing to go to conventions.

It’s just a thing we do. Relax and embrace it…and know that nine times out of ten, you’ll catch a glimpse of some nubile young woman dressed as a Princess Leia slave girl. It’s what the universe does to reward patience of our significant others.

Tip #11: Know what to do in a zombie attack.

We've been practicing for this one for a long time. We don't want to have to leave you behind.

Well, that about covers it. Congratulations on taking your first steps on the road to nerd girl nirvana. Know that you have selected the finest kind of woman possible. Way to go, champ!


I completely agree with all of this EXCEPT:

I have never been to a knitting store in my entire life.
I listened to NPR one time and thought it was full of shit and really annoying, so if yo bring up NPR it will make me less interested in you.
I have NO idea who "Liz Lemon" is.


But YES! OMFG that is EXACTLY it!! Be fing interesting! And of course I have to be attracted to you so yes I'll be shallow and admit you need to be cute, and no fatties, sry :(

So money is a shitty thing. I don't require a lot of it.. just enough to pay my bills and to be able to eat out with friends and go see a movie sometimes.

I actually make a lot at my job, especially since my job is basically just going on my computer and answering the emails and questions of little kids.

I decided to do online college because it was way cheaper than going to university...turns out I was dead wrong. It is the same/more than university...

Of course it is too late to go back now. I have to turn into my Dad's insurance proof that I am a full-time student like NOW or I will be without health insurance. And as a diabetic... that' s just not an option.

University of Phoenix does classes a tad bit differently than regular colleges. Instead of having your 4 or 5 classes per semester, they have you take 1 class for 5 weeks, then take another one for 5 weeks, etc. So you have to pay for each class upfront... the whole $1,700. per class.. it ends up being about $13,000- $14,000 per semester. *wallet bleeds*

Yeah I don't make anywhere near that.

My Grandma gives me some money per per semester... but that covers less than one class... so WTF?

So I have to get get a second job. Just updated my resume tonight.

I could possibly get a job at my mom's company, making about 30k/year with 2 weeks paid vacation and benefits. Think about it though... that JUST cover's the school costs. So i'd have to keep that job and my current job to make ends meet.

Of course, that job is an in house job, I'd have to work in San Francisco. That leaves 3 options if I get/take that job.

1- commute via BART from Fremont
2- move in with my Mom in Richmond and commute from there
3- move to the city

None of the above really thrill me.

Both options 1 and 2 mean I'd have about an hour long commute, meaning I'd never really see any of my friends except for the weekends.
I can't afford option 3.

I have moved around a lot since high school and it really sucks. I finally landed in a place where I have friends and some semblance of a life? (kind of) But anyways, I have friends I like to hang out with, and I'd have no time to see them.

I really don't want to live with my grandma anymore either, so maybe I'd be able to get my own place? I don't know. I really want my degree, but school is just so expensive

I'm getting really stinking frustrated.

I really don't want to leave Fremont, I like it here.

Why is everything going to shit lately?

FUCK MY LIFE

Stop yourself, and just... don't.

For me its a toss up between book 3 and book 7. Book 3 is nice because it is much lighter than the others, nobody really close to the readers dies, it's not so sad and dark, and there's a lot of cool new stuff and characters, and the ending is rather hopeful. Then book 7 is for the die hard readers who know what has been going on in Potterland. It ties up a lot of loose ends, it is sad but those things needed to happen. A lot goes on , we get to learn a lot, and the story doesn't end badly. I was satisfied with the way she ended the series, though of course I'll always want more :)

AND I JIZZED IN MY PANTS!!!!!

http://www.newsarama.com/film/070911-Reynolds.html

*drool*

The Proposal. It was cute and funny, and omnomnom Ryan Reynolds. I'd recommend it. This should be Sandra Bullock's last movie where she plays the young girl though, she's getting old, and it's showing. She looks older that Ryan Reynolds so it was weird. a bit. She's still a good actress, but getting too old for that type of role.

So i had to go downtown today with my mom, grandma, aunt, and aunt's cousin. Ugh they're so NOT fun people. Well my mom is, the others not at all.. so boring. They take for flipping ever to make a single decision. I felt like banging my head against a wall all day. So NOT what I need right now. Had a bit of fun though. We went to Boudin Bakery for lunch, sow some funny stuff.

The cousin, Jane, wanted to go down Lombard street... in my grandmas sketchy scary van...and my aunt is driving... who can't multitask to save her life. I.E. she can't even walk and chew gum at the same time.

Yeah I SO wanted out of that car, hahaha.

Oh well. Here are some fun pics from the day:)



Today was my friend Sean's wedding. I hope it went well. I'm sure it did. Congrats to him and his new wife. I only met her once but she seems nice. I didn't even have to "scan" her so to speak but Sean sure loves her:)

Found out i have lost a bit of weight lately.. like 10 pounds. Yay for having no appetite and not sleeping.

So aside from the major theme of the week, here's what else has been going on:

So that whole flat tire thing was HI-liarious as Jane would say. Yesterday night http://rurouni-jedi.livejournal.com/ and I were going to go to Chili's to get a much needed margarita or 2.. or 3... so knowing that we would be inebriated we walked all the way there. Only right in front of the restaurant I realize that I left my I.D. along with my AAA card in my other pants ( I took a shower anc changed before I headed to her place from my mom's)

So.. no booze for me... FAIL, hahah as if the week's drama and the tire wasn't enough I couldn't get what we went there to get. Oh well.. Chili's has the BEST nachos, so I made Shea split them with me ^^.

We got desert.. Chili's has awesome deserts too ^^



it started out ginormous



it was OMNOMNOMNOM!!!!!



Then I tried on that blue contact again. It was a LOT easier to get in this time than the last. I still need to practice though.. gotta go to the optometrist and get some that are the right shape for my eye.. these aren't quite right, so they look a bit funky:



I can't wait to go get some for the Illyria costume, it's gonna rock!

So what else could go wrong? Um.. an fing flat tire on the freway heading back to my mom's from Ikea today... aka a flat on one of the NEW tires I got. I'll have to ask Omar if his dad will replace it/fix it for free.. I dunno how that works.

FAIL!!

It's funny that this happens.. you just have to laugh at the crazy shit in life. Shea got a flat like 2 days ago, and I get one today...LOL!!!!!

In case some of you are wondering why you can no longer read the 500 billion entries in here, they're locked to certain people. If you can't read it and think you should be able to, message me, I'll add ya. I just don't want my uber personal shit all over the place for anyone to see who searches me.

I love you all.


Big thanks to Shea and Seth. I honestly don't think I'd be able to get out of bed right now if it wasn't for you two.

lots of love,

"que suenas con los angelitos" in Spanish it translates to "may you dream with the little angels" however the sentiment is more "sweet dreams"

Chinese food makes the best takeaway/delivery. Especially when it is raining outside. Then ordering hot Chinese food and staying in and snuggling is the best!

I got my hair cut today, and it's super cute I think! In 2 weeks when I get paid again he's going to dye it like a reddish brown, I'm super excited:)

I went to see this guy named Fred at Avalon Spa (where I got the bikini wax at ) Yelpers love him, and rightly so! He did a great job:)  BTW I can't remember if I said so or not but the bikini wax was no where near as bad as I thought it was going to be. Next time maybe I'll go for gold and get the Brazilian. I want to get my underarms and legs done too. Shaving is such a chore.. I like smooooooth!!!

So here's an uber crappy pic of my haircut. Excuse me looking like crap, I had just taken off my makeup and whatnot.



I need to have Shea take some decent pics. I can't photograph myself and I know she wanted to do that, we'll have to make time for that.. let the funnage ensue!


BTW cutest thing. So tonight... well Friday night, was Sean's bachelor party. The boys all went to San Jose and went to some bars and a hookah bar and some other places, and Joey kept texting me... adorable! He's at a bachelor party.. .and he is texting me random comments about the evening. That is so cute!

I don't now why I'm still awake, I'm so tired. Last night I went to bed at 7:15... AM. I was doing extra work hours ( I work online from home) I got a lot done.. but I dunno why I did that. Then I had my hair appointment for 12:45. *yawn*

Then I went and got lunch with Shea and we ran some errands and whatnot, stopped by Borders to say hi to Joey.

I'm kind of cranky at my boss, who is also/first my friend. I have 2 parts to my job, I do moderation, and then also player support. And when she submitted my time sheet apparently she only submitted my mod hours... so I only got paid for 8 hours instead of like 58... FAIL. So of course the shitty office manager lady who takes care of financial skipped out early today *sigh* she so lazy, she can't just skip out on a Friday.. people may need shit, and you need to fing tell them you're leaving! So now I won't get the rest of my paycheck until like Wednesday..... EPIC FAIL!!!!!

I REALLY should go to sleep now. K I will.. g'nite gentle readers:)

So I really hate school and it costs a ton of money I don't have. I have been going over my expenses and whatnot and I already have over $10,000 in student loans. I can't afford this expensive ass university. So I am thinking about not going back to SJSU in the fall, but instead to do an online university. I hate going to school. I ditch a lot to be honest, I can't bring myself to go. Wedding planners don't even need a degree, I just want one. So one in PR is no longer necessary. So that's just what I'm thinking. Maybe then I can work more.. get a second job.. make some decent money or something.

I need to make more money!!!!! I'm poor, and I feel it. And I don't want to be living with Grinny ( my grandma) too much longer. She drives me nuts. She is super religious and I love her but that makes her kind of look down on people who aren't. And I never would have ever noticed this about her before, but she is very judgemental and whatnot. I love her to death and she's still a saint but jeebus. I think I am just ready to leave the nest. But I don't really want to leave Fremont. I love my friends I have here and Joey is here.

Things are going VERY well there btw:)


Went to sushi with shea the other day, that was a ton of fun, and it twas omnomnom. She got a bunch of single demo colored contacts and she let me try one. It was hilarious how long it took me to get it in. It felt weird! I need to get some for my Illyria costume for comic con, so I guess I should go to the eye doc and get some now so I can get used to them.

well..that;s about it for now:)

goood night fair readers... all 3 of you! *hugs*

Ok so E3 was AWESOME!!  It was SO much fun! Joey, Seth, and I drove down, styed the first 2 nights at Seth's mom's house, then the last night at Cherise's ( co-worker/friend). There were so many cool new games that are coming out!

[ I'm going to try to sell my Wii and my PS2 so I can get a PS3. Anyone want to buy them? My Wii is in like new condition, got xtra controllers and games, and has the priginal packaging so im pricing it at 275. ps2 has original packaging, and is in great condition, so im hoping to get like 60 bucks. any takers? ]

We got to try out some fun games, got to meet the Woot.com guys, that's like my favorite site. I love their shirts too. Got a bunch of fun free swag. Is it swag or schwag? Not sure, but I got lots of it!

My favorite thing we got was probably these free pics with a green screen we got taken. Joey and I got a really funny one taken of EverQuest with a dragon. I'll try to scan it next time I'm at my Mom's and upload it here.

I got to try this game called Darksiders which is cool but I'm not going to get it. It's a LOT like God of War in the snese of graphics, the main character, weapons, looks and all that. It was funny.. after we demo'd it and were walking away from the pods the booth babe gave us a flier and was like hey have you heard of the new game Darksiders? It's like a Dark Zelda... I wanted to say to her.. aww that's cute that you think that, why don't you go back to the mall? This is like God of War and NOTHNG like Zelda! LOL *pats her gently on the head*

The Assasin's Creed II looks INSANE. I never played the first one but now I want to so I can maybe get the second one.

The new FF looks cool ( i posted the vid i took of the preview on my fb Shea)

GAH so much awesomeness in one place. The first day Joey and I went alone b/c Seth had to go to his Sister's graduation. Then the Second day we slept in too late, went to the Habbo office to meet Dani and Sandy for lunch, then went to E3. So Poor Seth only got to go for a couple hours T_T Then we went to Cherise's house where she made us a delicious dinner, then we played vid games with her and her hubby Matt, whose a cool dude. They attempted to teach me Halo. I'm retarded and cannot figure out the one joystick turns your body the other turns your head. So I currently suck at it but I like it a lot so I'll play more with Joey and Omar prolly.

There is this awesome looking MMO (for PC's) coming out called Global agenda that is SOO COOL! Joey and I demo'd it, and i can't wait for it to start BETA.. currently in ALPHA. Go check it out when you can! I highly recommend!

Anywhoooo.. I can't think of too much more to say. It was an AWESOME time! I can't wait to go next year too!

I hope this link works, here's my E3 pics on Flickr:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/32125723@N00/sets/72157619218344125/

:)

So tomorrow I am going to get my first bikini wax ever. I dunno why. I'm just tired of having to.. maintain myself. I  prefer to be clean and tidy. I know its going to hurt an fing ton so I'm uber nervous. I just thought I'd give it a try.. see if it makes life easier.  But them after my and my gal pal are gonna get a margherita to celebrate the end of my finals, tomorrow are my last 2, yippie hooray! '

Also today I after my bio final I went to the mall, had to get a new bra.

Tonight I was watching the Secret Diary of a Callgirl. It's a pretty hilarious show, it's got Billie Piper from Doctor Who in it, and she's funny as heck in it.

So between looking at other people in their underwear, and myself, and thinking/dreading the bikini wax aka my lady parts in another woman's face.  I  just can't get over how fing fat and disgusting I  am. I repulse myself. I read an article online today about men and their opinions of women and whatnot, and more than 50% of men said they'd rather sleep with a woman who was 20 years olde than them than 20 pounds heavier than them.

I gained a ton of weight after high school and I  just can't seem to be able to get rid of it. I  hate exercising too, which makes it worse. And I have the worlds biggest sweet tooth, so I'm screwed. I  need to get up off my fat ass and do something about it, but apparently I'm also super lazy. I can't even take a shower without thinking how gross I am. I wish I was thin and pretty. Or at least thin, then at least I'd have the body to cover for my lack of good looks.

ugh I hate how gross I am! I thought I was fat in high school, at 5'6" and about 150lbs.. and now I'm (let's be honest here) 5'6" and about 185lbs. I am SO GROSS! I have grosso stretch marks all over my thighs and now even behind my knees. I  think I'm going to die alone, nobody is going to want this disgusting body.

Please don't comment on this anyone, I really don't want to hear another aww no you're not type of crap. I know I'm fat, and this is how I feel, that's not going to change.

On a happier note, tomorrow is my last 2 finals, then I'm free for the summer, YAY! I can't wait to be done.  I hate school.

Also I  hope I don't get my period tomorrow. I think  I might, and then I'd have to cancel my wax. Being a girl really fing sucks sometimes.

So I had my iPod on shuffle and I came across the Donnas CD, and oh how this song fits perfectly
......................................................................................
What Do I Have To Do by the Donnas

Don't lead me on, and don't get me wrong
I can only wait so long
I'm being way too nice, and you're as cold as ice

Your games are tearing me apart
It's time to finish what you start

[Chorus]
What do I have to do to make you want me?
What do I have to do to make you want me?
Woah! Woah!

The message that you send, and all the rules you bend
Tell me you're more than my friend
Need your kiss of death, but I can't catch my breath

Your games are tearing me apart
It's time to finish what you start

I've been waiting for a chance to tell you
I know you feel the same way I do
So let me do you right...that's right

Don't lead me on, and don't get me wrong
You're tearing me apart
It's time to finish what you start
.............................................................

yeah... true dat'


So last night when I was over at his house we watched a movie and I didn't snuggle with him. That sucked. I did it on purpose though. This is going to be more difficult than I thought it would be. I didn't have time to see him today either, and tomorrow I'm going to my mom's until monday night, so the soonest I'll see him is Tuesday. So I had wanted to tell him that I am going to be backing off a bit, but I didn't get a chance. So I guess I can either leave it and tell him later, or send him an email, but that seems shitty. Maybe he'll miss me this weekend... I doubt it. This sucks.

I had rattlesnake in Rawhide once.. it was like very rubbery chicken.. I might eat it again.. but I don't think you're allowed to anymore. I was a little kid when I did.